Photo 4.

Hamish, Andy, Lauren and meeee.

Hamish and Andy

Today Lauren and i went to Castle Hill to meet Hamish and Andy. Stood in line for four hours. One person threw up and another fainted. It was hot as shit and i got super sunburnt but only on half my chest/one boob? How that works i have no idea.

It was good to spend the day just chilling with Lauren and being excited about something for once (yes, we are losers).

Us being very excited. Only half an hour standing there.

Still excited.


The cause of my future sun cancer today.

Three hours in, delirious and haggard.

Lauren cried after meeting them hahahaha. Bessssttt!!!

In the end we waited for just over four hours to meet them, not going to avoid sounding like a 15 year old girl but it was totally worth it and they're super cute irl. NO CARE EVER.

I'm so tired so i will be sleeping and probably have heatstroke.

Going to apply aloe vera gel, bai!

Photo3.

Tired after six hours of cleaning.

Photo 2.

Today has two photos because it's been a big day.

Redundancy.

RIP Dad. 11 years and it's not getting any easier.

No more working.

Sooo i was right. I got made redundant today. I received my letter and that was that.

Late afternoon i packed my stuff up and said goodbyes. 

The last few weeks i've gotten really close to everyone at my work so i was upset to say goodbye, especially to my mate BJ. He was my daily lunch buddy and we talked about everything, we always stuck together and now it's over. Sucks.

I've been waiting for this day to come for a while now it just really sucks that it happened so soon and so fast. 

Apparently everyone else at my work will be made redundant in two weeks as well, though. It sucks, finding a job is really hard.

I think i'm just going to take a couple of weeks to sit around and chill out, something i feel i really need. I need to take some time to figure out what i want to do with myself and work my way there. After these couple of weeks are up i'll start applying for new jobs and see how i go. I don't even have a resume, i've never needed one. This weekend will be spent making a resume.

I'm scared. I don't know how long my pay out from my job is going to last. I guess i'll have to make it last.

So that's that. My job at Capital Corp is done and dusted, all over.

My job.

Okay, so I work for a company called Capital Corp Finance, they're publicly owned by a company called Cmi.
Two days ago cmi sold 51% of Capital Corp to a couple of private investors, these investors will then restructure capital corp.
Due to the current financial crisis business has turned to shit and we're not earning enough income to service each office. I believe my office itself cost our company $40,000 last month. We have shitty brokers who are incapable of doing their jobs properly, costing the company all this money.
If anyone has had a conversation with me in the last few days they would have heard my thoughts and speculation.
I think that they will make the two shitty brokers and myself redundent, put one of the girls in support staff(what i am) onto the road to be a full time broker and make our other support staff girl the only support staff in the office.
Tough times for our company.
My manager goes on holidays tomorrow for two weeks and if they're going to make me redundent then i hope that they do it today.

I gotta find a new job. Yikes.

Picture 1.

As i was pondering to myself tonight i decided that i'm going to try take a photo everyday and update my blog with each photo.

Todays photo is of a note my manager at work left on my computer today. He tried doing it on the sly this morning without me finding out, he also left one on everyone elses computers, different face for each person. He's legit losing the plot.

Confirmation of entering the electronic visa entry(american green card). Fingers crossed.

The Mongoloids.

Hey everyone,
My friends band has just put up pre orders for their new record.
If you haven't even listened to them then i suggest you have a listen www.myspace.com/mongoloidsnj
I saw them a few times while i was in America and they're awesome, a ton of fun. Takes a bit to get used to but once you do it's happy days from there.

Six Feet Under records have put pre orders up.


The Mongoloids of Edison, New Jersey are back with a 12" of new material. By now the Mongos are practically a household name to hardcore kids around the world but in case you're still unfamiliar, they combine the metallic elements of say, Megadeth, with the crunch of your favorite New York Hardcore bands for a riff-rocking mosh-friendly combination that has infected the brains of more hardcore kids than syphillis. These straight edge youngsters have made quite a name for themselves with their recent US and European tour, and their new release contains a tight and measured approach to hardcore than can only be obtained by rocking stage after stage around the globe. In fact, it's not unlike the previous Mongoloids material but hotter solos and meaner vocals. Cop the new record and memorize the Mongo Stomp parts before they rock a town near you in the near future.

You can order this two ways.

Order the record itself: http://www.sixfeetunderrecords.com/catalog/product_info.php?cPath=21&products_id=407

Or order the preorder package, which is the record and an exclusive preorder shirt. The shirt comes in white or black so just pick your size:

http://www.sixfeetunderrecords.com/catalog/index.php?cPath=35

The limited vinyl is first come, first serve. Doesnt matter if you order the shirt or not, the records go out in depending on who ordered first.

If you want to get it on cd go visit the Eulogy records website.



If you don't order anything, at least listen.

Thankyou, and goodbye.

I miss my friends

America was too long ago and the last few days i've been really missing my friends. Ray, Janise, Mij, Manny, Emia. I got too attached to these guys and it sucks.
I go through stages of being alright and then getting sad. I'm currently going through sad moments.
I've never been scared of dying, but for the first time ever i'm actually terrified. I'm scared of dying before seeing these people again. The more i think about it the more i freak the fuck out. What a stupid fucking state of mind to be in.
I'm an idiot.

I'm bad at this

Okay, so maybe i should never have started this blog because i'm so hopeless at updating.
I guess i'll try summerise the last week or so as short as possible.

Went to Ruiner last Wednesday. Made mates with one of the dudes, he was alright. I'm not that into Ruiner so i didn't take to them very much.
I cleared things up with someone i've been bickering with for a long time. I felt exhausted fighting with people over nothing. It was a few days before my birthday, i'm getting older and i felt like i should grow up and leave it be. We had a long conversation and it's over. Thankyou.

Friday night i went to a show in St Ives to see Worlds Aparty. It made me realise i really know nothing about any new Sydney bands or people. I honestly do not have the time to listen to new bands, i really wish i did. Although, i guess when every new band sounds the same and don't stand out to me how can i be expected to be blown away? I do give them props for getting up there and having a go. I couldn't play an instrument if my life depended on it.
I tried playing guitar all through high school, i choose to blame my stumps for fingers for the inability to play. I also tried drums. I actually owned a drum kit in grade 8. This phase lasted me a whole six months, i even took drum lessons. You see, i have a very short attention span and if i'm not good at something after a few tries i give up. Oh woe is me.
Anyway, after the show Aj came and stayed over. He wanted to sleep with the air con on. We did and alas, i awoke on Saturday morning with a killer of a throat.
We chilled on Saturday and unfortunately Aj glued himself to fresh prince for a couple of hours, eventually i was too.
I had to turn the tv off before beginning another episode so we could actually get up and do something.
We went to the plaza to do a couple of things and buy a few things in preperation for the night.
Aj enjoyed babbling to the cashier at Woolworths about how limes are out of season and some other junk.

Saturday night was my little bbq/drinks for my birthday, and little it was.
I was really disappointed by the people who bailed on me. Especially the ones who i, time and time again, do shit for. Made me realise i have a lot less friends than what i already thought.
Thanks to the ones who came.
We all drank a lot, including Aj who threw up in my bathroom and tried lying to me about it hahaha. All the dad calls that were made(fuuuck), the amount of swearing that went on in front of my family(including me slipping the c word) and my parents not saying a word about it and Aj hating his job so much it was all he spoke about... TO EVERYONE.

Sunday was my actual birthday. It was alright. Aj, Dan and i picked up some pizzas and scoffed them all down. Some conversation was had about all going back to America together next year, i hope this happens.
Thenthey had to leave.
I opened presents and hung out watching tv, nothing special. Best part of the day was skyping with Ray. Janise came on as well and i got a "hello mate" in a fake australian accent from Emia.
I couldn't have thought of a better way to end my birthday.

By the way, Saturday night the boys wanted to sleep with the air con on again, I stupidly said yes and awoke on Sunday feeling even worse.

Monday i felt like death but had to go because the other two girls would still be on holidays and my work needs me to be there to run everything.
Tuesday and Wednesday i had off work seeing as the girls would be back from their holiday.
tuesday i went to the doctor to get checked out, he was a moron.
BUUUTT best news of all i bought the very pretty new purple ghd. I really can't afford it but i couldn't help myself. My hairdresser helped justify it to myself by saying it's a birthday present to myself and HEY! I'm happy with that justification!!
Anyway, basically just spent the last two days in bed watching Sex and the city on dvd that i got for my birthday. I'm up to season three already.

Now it's Wednesday and i'm back at work. I'm still not better but i came in before my boss fires me haha.
I suck, though, i come in and find that Loudi(one of the brokers) is really sick and her daughter who also works with us is sick as well. Loudi caught it off me and then took it home and gave it to her daughter. Oops.


I really hope i'm better by Saturday night because No Apologies last show is on.


I didn't simplify that at all haha.
Being sick sucks and all i can say is: I guess falling asleep with the air con on only works with one person in America.

Coffee

Yeah soooooo coffee tonight with Penny was a bad idea. Yeah might have been okay if it was late afternoon but we went at 10pm so i can't sleep now.

Star City on Saturday was okay.  We all felt so sick afterwards, to the point of barfing.

Went to Dans afterwards. Him and i ended up falling asleep it sucked. Woke up about 1am and had to drive home. Attempted taking a different way home which resulted in me getting lost and taking a lot longer to get home.

Worked the whole weekend, it sucked. I got today off though. Slept late and went shopping. Purchased a few things including season two of Full House which i'm watching right now.

I actually have nothing to say. Another pointless entry.

Weekend

It's been a couple of days since i've posted here, oops.

Yesterday i worked. It was boring with nothing to do(as per usual these days).
Left work early to pick Penny up from the airport. Her parents have some random hate against her at the moment haha. Decided to go to the show at the Manning Bar with her.
I had to take drunk Rowan home. He lives on this creepy as fuck road with shitty, sudden and quick corners. Defs nearly crashed a couple of times. As i was leaving his drive way he sent me an email saying he saw a guy on his street before so be careful. Fuck you Rowan, fuck you.

This morning i went and picked up some American cash i ordered. $250 Australian dollars brought $166 American dollars. Fuck the Australian dollar right now. The person who i'm doing this for better like it or i'll be pissed.

Now i'm at work. The phone has rung twice, they were both people i work with. I've had absolutely nothing to do all day.
I bought two pillows in with me. I had a 30min nap earlier, i think i'm due for another. Sooooo tired.

After work, though, i'm going to Star City with Dan, Ryan, Ryans girl Dael and i don't know who else is coming along. We're having an eating competition so i've tried to eat as minimal as possible today. Alas, Ryan is a bit of a machine in the eating department so i don't know how that will go over.


Speaking to American friends who i haven't spoken to in a while makes me happy.

Going to nap again.

2008 President election- Obama!!

Spent all day at work on the edge of my seat following the votes.
Obama!
Good work America, i'm siked.

Penpals

Yesterday B9 had a thread about penpals.

Last time i participated in a thread like this i had four penpals but only one continued to write back, he actually sent me some cool records. 

This time i've hooked myself up with three new penpals but open for more. I like sending/receiving letters and packages.

Last night i bought a whole bunch of Miles Away stuff off Brendan. Even though i'm broke due to this i'm so siked to get this stuff. I want a Miles Away collection.

Also, yesterday i spent all day thinking and i decided to have a birthday bbq/drinks at my house. I invited a few people, only the ones who i really care about and want there. Some can come, some can't. It's a huge bum out to hear those who can't come.

I don't feel weird about being 20. I don't really care about my birthday this year. This year has been so full of ups and downs i can't wait for it to be over. I'm really hoping 2009 can give me some more insight and guidance into what i want to do with my life. It's fucking terrifying and difficult.

Next year i'll be going back to America. This time longer and this time hopefully will be with someone. I was going to wait until i turn 21 to return but i really cannot wait that long. I miss the place more than i can ever explain. Trust me on this one.

Work was boring as hell today. Melbourne cup was on so my manager was at a "function". At around 2:30pm everyone in my office walked up to the pub for drinks and to watch the race. This is the first time in a few years that i didn't watch the race but i really didn't care/really didn't want to go to the pub and be surrounded by hundreds of drunk workers. 

I stayed in the office whilst everyone went out and drank. They were gone for a couple of hours which was cool, i guess. I got to go home early though which was fine by me.

Met up with Carly and we went to hogs breath for dinner. Was good.

I've been getting the worst migraines lately i don't know what to do anymore. I think this time it might be because i'm not getting enough sleep lately and i'm not eating very often. 

So in my agenda of things to do.

- Send to SWAPBOT partners x4

- B9 penpals x3

- B9 secret santa x1

- BGO secret santa x1

- Buy my miles away/no apologies ticket

Anyway, it's almost 9:30 and i'm already behind schedule time of sleepy. I don't know why i do this to myself.

Pointless post.

Peace x,

Number one.

New blog. I'm hoping i can actually maintain this one. I don't know why i have such a hard time doing so.

This weekend was one of the best weekends i've had in months. The only mishap was leaving my wallet at home. No ID or money.
Friday i was told to go home at 4(instead of 5). I didn't bother arguing that one.
Drove up to the central coast(an hour and a half away). Stayed at nan and pops house. Watched a movie with nan.
Saturday, i got a nice sleep in and baked cupcakes for the party. Nan and i later went out to buy some containers and i met up with Matt and Brooke. Brooke was lovely enough to let me transfer money into her account and withdraw it for me. Thanks Brooke.
Shopped for some party goods, went back to nan and pops, decorated my cupcakes and got ready.
Drove to Owens new house and took everything inside. Started drinking almost immediately out of a glass that resembled a vase mmmm.
Aj arrived and i was siked. He just got home from America(hence the party) so i was overly happy to see him.
Everyone got quite drunk, Manginas were shown, bad fart smells, good 90's music, good food, matt breaking my hiptop and later on me passing out on the couch.
Awoke on Sunday feeling like shit, as did Matt. He barfed. Had nurofen and went back to sleep. Awoke later on feeling amazing.
Drank three quarters of a bottle of vodka which i think is a fair decent effort.
Spent Sunday hanging with Aj. We went to terrigal and got ice cream. Sooooo good (L) cold rock.
After all that i drove down to Sydney and went to the show at the sando.
So happy to see Alix and Drew again. They should stop living so far away. Good hangs with lix and Elissa.
I got to spend equal time with my friends and had a lot of fun with them all. Saw other friends i don't get to see very often(thanks to my antisocial personality).
Drove Dan home aftfer the show. Seeing him always makes me happy.

All in all it was a great weekend with so many good friends. First time i've felt this happy probably since i got back from America.

Some photos from the party. There isn't many.





If i don't get a warning after what happened at work today i'll be very surprised. I hate my job.
Very tired after the weekend. Going to go home and sleep straight away.

Peace x.