I miss my friends

America was too long ago and the last few days i've been really missing my friends. Ray, Janise, Mij, Manny, Emia. I got too attached to these guys and it sucks.
I go through stages of being alright and then getting sad. I'm currently going through sad moments.
I've never been scared of dying, but for the first time ever i'm actually terrified. I'm scared of dying before seeing these people again. The more i think about it the more i freak the fuck out. What a stupid fucking state of mind to be in.
I'm an idiot.